{"id":13,"date":"2023-03-19T07:55:00","date_gmt":"2023-03-19T07:55:00","guid":{"rendered":""},"modified":"2023-03-23T21:05:17","modified_gmt":"2023-03-23T21:05:17","slug":"13-2","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/thecoconutbird.com\/staging\/2625\/13-2\/","title":{"rendered":"Long Lost Blog"},"content":{"rendered":"<div style=\"clear: both; text-align: center;\"><a href=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/thecoconutbird.com\/staging\/2625\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/03\/IMG_4199.heic?ssl=1\"><img data-recalc-dims=\"1\" decoding=\"async\" loading=\"lazy\" class=\"alignnone size-full wp-image-166\" src=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/thecoconutbird.com\/staging\/2625\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/03\/IMG_4199.heic?w=750&#038;ssl=1\" alt=\"\"><\/a><img data-recalc-dims=\"1\" decoding=\"async\" loading=\"lazy\" class=\"alignnone size-full wp-image-166\" src=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/thecoconutbird.com\/staging\/2625\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/03\/IMG_4199.heic?w=750&#038;ssl=1\" alt=\"\"> <img data-recalc-dims=\"1\" decoding=\"async\" loading=\"lazy\" class=\"alignnone size-medium wp-image-168\" src=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/thecoconutbird.com\/staging\/2625\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/03\/Screen-Shot-2023-03-23-at-11.02.16-AM.png?resize=222%2C300&#038;ssl=1\" alt=\"\" width=\"222\" height=\"300\" srcset=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/thecoconutbird.com\/staging\/2625\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/03\/Screen-Shot-2023-03-23-at-11.02.16-AM.png?resize=222%2C300&amp;ssl=1 222w, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/thecoconutbird.com\/staging\/2625\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/03\/Screen-Shot-2023-03-23-at-11.02.16-AM.png?w=669&amp;ssl=1 669w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 222px) 100vw, 222px\" \/><\/div>\n<p>Well I found my blog after so long. SO much has changed. I moved to Hawaii. I am living the dream. Well&#8230;my dream. I have a beautiful home, wonderful friends and a life I have built. I have lost 60 lbs and feel so good. I left the LDS church and THAT has given me a sense of freedom. It was the final release from my life as I had lived it&nbsp; in my 20&#8217;s,30&#8217;s and my 40&#8217;s for the most part. My 50&#8217;s have been MINE!<\/p>\n<p>After moving to Hawaii in October of 2021, I began dating a really great guy named Craig. It was good. It just wasn&#8217;t enough. After several months, I ended it. I feel good about it but every day I think about him, I miss him and I wonder if I rushed to end things. I am ok alone. I am pretty independent and I like myself enough to be ok with being alone. I just feel like there is someone and I can&#8217;t figure out who it is, where he is. I am at the time in my life where I have more to offer than I have in the past. I have a good job, a degree and a good sense of who I actually am. It took me a long time to figure that out. My ex husband was controlling and gaslighting and emotionally abusive. He told me I was dumb, crazy, &#8220;the men in the little white coats were going to take me away&#8221;, told me I would die fat and alone. That stays with you and is hard to unhear. I have done a lot of work on myself and now I know he was just cruel. I am good. I am kind. I am worthy of love.<\/p>\n<p>Finding love is not my goal. It would be nice though. Until then, I will keep living a life I love with people that are in my life by choice.I do think I will find love again. Where is he?<\/p>\n<p>I hope to write here more than once every few years. To share the reasons I moved here, the life I am living and the person I am now. I am happy here. I feel actual joy. It is so good.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Well I found my blog after so long. SO much has changed. I moved to Hawaii. 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