Author: Ficklins

After a long battle with Idiopathic Pulmonary Fibrosis my mother passed away. The suffering has ended for her, and she no longer has to live life with a tube in her nose and in bed. She went in peace and that is all any of us could hope for. I on the other hand struggle… Continue reading JOANN ORCHOW 12/13/32-02/20/2010

You know who you are…cropping people out of family pictures just makes you look silly and pathetic…get over it already.

I sit and write this from the darkness of my mom’s hospital room. I type this on the tiny keyboard of my phone..and I can’t help but think how thankful I am for medical technology. the machines that beep ..beep..beep..beep..are the windows into her health. it is amazing to see what they can use to… Continue reading HOSPITALS

I have looked at this page a few times lately and have tried to think of what to write. There just is not much time to get things into words that justify what I feel somedays ..so an update list of my thoughts lately might work best. 1. My mother is still ill, obviously. We… Continue reading BUSY…

Not feeling much of the Christmas Spirit. I need a boost. Maybe I need to do some baking or something. I need Santa to bring me some CHEER!

So after being in bed for a week straight with some type of flue ( I will not admit to swine flu) I thought I was finally going to get out of the house…WRONG! Cassidy woke up yesterday morning with Strep. I did not know what it was at the time but her breathing seemed… Continue reading OPEN YOUR MOUTH AND SAY “AHHHH”

Today would have been my 23 wedding anniversary. This is my first one since the divorce. Very strange. Very sad. I will always love Chad, I guess the old saying is true …sometimes Love just is not enough.

Lori and I went to Bermuda and we had an amazing time. To be honest, the ship could have stayed in Boston and we would not have cared. We just had so much fun being silly. We were very involved in every game, show, contest and activity on the ship. We even won Trivia Championship… Continue reading ALL ABOARD

In Bermuda …..Be back in a week.

I have come to realize that in the last 6 weeks or so, I have been so sad, no negative and feeling quite angry that I have far from a perfect life. I compare everything to my past..I was married to a great man, with 4 great kids, a beautiful home, amazing friends, great sisters,… Continue reading TEN THINGS I AM THANKFUL FOR